Well if it's not one thing it's another
Just as I start to get over the infections, my other wisdom tooth decides to explode. Ow.

It's cracked the one next to it, so I think they'll have to take two.. I'm loosin all my teeth here people! Poo.....

Oh well.

I've always been a big advocate of helping people. Helping them do better, get out of destructive habits, deal with insecurities, make themselves stronger, and improve the quality of their life. Seeing people improve their situations and become happier is one of my favorite things to see. But tonight I got a grissly reminder, that most of the time, if not all, people don't actually listen. THey claim they want help, they claim that they want to get better, that they want their lives to be better. THat they want to let go of their fears, and do what it takes to make themselves happy for the first time in a while. But it doesn't happen. They don't actually want to. They get stuck in their little ruts, that even though their problems make them miserable, their comforting. If they stay the same, nothing changes and they don't have to venture into new territory, where they won't know what to do. It may make them miserable, but it's familiar, and humans would prefer familiarity over the oppurtunity to improve their situation. It's depressing. And I can't help but think, out of all of my trying, have I actually ever helped anyone? Is anyones life better because of my assistance?

I'm trying to improve my situation. Currently looking for a flash animator for an on-line series, and workin up the money for a 3CCD digi-cam so that I can start doing high-quality music videos, short skits, and practice for when Attone is ready. I'm trying to improve myself. But even still, I would rather help other people improve theirs, rather than just let them sit there. I wish I could honestly say I helped someone make their life better, something worth living. But I don't think I can. Shit.

Oh well, fuck it. At least I joined the Greenstar softball team. The Naturals are gonna kick ass this season!